Hurt

不明白为什么有些人分手
会处处去伤害对方
想尽办法做一些令对方痛心疾首的事
非要置对方于死地不可

当他们做这些举动时
难道他们忘了
自己曾经深爱过这个人？

为了什么?
也许
你会赢一口气
也许
你会令对方很不快乐
但
你会失去更多
你会永远失去
她本来还对你的爱
你会永远失去
她原本对你的尊重

你就像
孔雀开屏之后
除了得到那一刹那的骄傲
过后
你一无所有

'My Neighbour Totoro'

When I was young, I was a big fan of Hayao Miyazaki's work
especially one of his most significant work - 'My Neighbour Totoro'
I must admit that it was incredibly cute
The story line was good and and the characters were really touching.
The totoros were so adorable that I wanted a plushie of one.
I always imagine that I'm gonna walk around with an umbrella over my head and a giant leaf on my head like a boss. XD
I also loved the artwork. A definite thumbs up.

It was like how childhood memories feel,
and it was undoubtedly my childhood heaven....

爱的迷信

她看过一篇文章
大意是说不要常把自己和心爱的人的照片
故事和日常生活点滴放在blog里
因为这很可能会令这段感情不长久
原因她已不太记得了
好像是说
如果读的人很多人看不顺眼你们
你们不但得不到祝福
反之会收到很多负能量
这样会间接影响到这份感情

听起来很好笑是吗
然而想不到
向来不迷信的她
为了保护这段感情
她竟然选择宁可信其有

她不想冒险
于是她从不敢在blog里提起他
虽然她真的很想把他们
在一起的点点滴滴
喜怒哀乐都记载下来
因为那些故事
是无比的美丽和珍贵

可是
因为爱他
她唯有把一切放在心里

她不介意让自己愚昧相信
这类荒谬的迷信

因为那是
爱的迷信

A lesson

God, I surrender...

Things will get better :)

Girlfriend : Wanna see a magic trick?
Boyfriend : Sure, babe.
Girlfriend : BAM! You're single. . . .

People in 2011 ♥

For the whole 2011, to thank the people in my life throughout the year, I would like to express my feelings by blogging this post.

God.
First of all, I'm thankful that God gave me the strength to keep me moving forward mentally from the insight of my soul and mind
Spending a few twist and swirl around the 'world' made me understand more, and so be more mature through the things that happened in life. God has taught me that there's nothing that happens without reason. When God turns your world upside down, he just wants you to learn to be tough and how to live side up again.

Family.
Daddy and Mummy, thanks for the endless love, care and of course daily needs like shelter I'm living in currently and food that I consume everyday. Thanks for fulfilling nearly all my requests and give me opportunity to learn instruments and yet made me a better person that have talents besides doing well in academics. I never would have get any achievements without your support. Mum, I appreciate what you have done for the family though you're naggy sometimes :P. Gor, the person who always listen to the problems that I encountered in relationships, friendships and so on. You were the one who always lend me your ear when I face obstacles in life. (well, you will have less ear sore from now onwards though :D) Thank you and I love you guys always!

Friends.
You all had been the most fateful part in my life as I'm easily influenced and affected by you guys more than anyone else.

To you, DEARIE, who always love me unconditionally and never leave me alone.
You were the one who lifted me up when I'm at the lowest of my sorrow.
You were the one who set my head straight, held my hands and walked along with me when I occasionally lost in life.
You were the one who noticed of my careless behaviour and even nagged me and lend me a hand in handling all kind of troubles.
You were the one who pick up the things that I dropped or left back and returned it to me, e.g my SMILE and LAUGHTERS.
You were the one that is not my boyfriend but I would love to hug.
You were the one that taught me nothing is too hard to walk through, if you were just by my side.
You are the one that I would always bear in mind what we have been through even after so many years. Every single little details including arguments and embarrassing and awkward moments!
hehehe..
Frankly I'm really grateful for everything you have done for me though I'm so forgetful to say thank you. Love you always my bff.

To that SOMEONE who brought me knowledge and directed me into the right paths. I have all my respect for you as you taught me things that I would have overlooked and missed. You educated me to always work hard and never give ourselves a pause when we are in the journey of study. When you keep forcing yourself to work hard continuously just to achieve the dream that you were thirst for, the sweetness of the fruit of success will be beyond description and so because of you, your encouragement, I start pouring effort for the sake of my future. Glad to know you in my life. Thanks for always be by my side.

Along the year of 2011, I've gone through some pain in friendship. Some are close friends and some occured among ordinary friends. But they are just my 'PEOPLE-TO-BE-FORGOTTEN' list :)

To those who thinks I'm just Plain Stupid and loves to take advantages from me. You taught me how to handle people like you everytime you do it to me. It's just like a online game that both you and I continuously level up our power on how to defend and attack. You guys turned my thinking in crisis management and skills in jerks distinguishing. It's certainly a game as stressed up dota, as challenging yet knowledgeable as soduku. Keep it up ya, I will be prepare to learn as after every GAME OVER, I still get another chance to beat you again.

To those who hurt and look down on me once. I thank you for doing it as you made me stronger to face harder challenges and move through tougher obstacles and circumstances in life. The pain you guys once pierce and stab through my body, made everything in my life now easier as it just to me already after you guys hurted me. Those experiences and lessons I learned, shaped me into a smarter yet kinder person as I learnt not be a lame yuck like you all.


Thanks for you guys for appearing in my life. Your existence that brought positive and negative implications and so I've grown a lot.

F B relationship

有人说过
FB会促使一段relationship的诞生
也会摧毁一段美好的relationship
这话一点也不错
水能载舟亦能覆舟

当男女相爱时
都爱在FB放in a relationship with....
这也代表向其他人说
I'm unavailable
让其他人不会再打你的主意
知难而退
这象征着给对方一种commitment
一种美丽安全的承诺

然而
很多人就滥用这个relationship status
尤其那些男生
他们把它当作斗气和报复工具
吵架冷战时动不动就更改
一点诚意都没有
也不想想
当时表白成功获得佳人时
第一个要让全世界知道的人是谁
是他们

后来吵架闹分手
24小时不到
就把In a relationship 改为 single的人
又是谁
也是他们

他们这种幼稚自私的做法
真的很不gentleman 很hurt女生咯
他们这样做会往往会让女生觉得
他们迫不及待要有第二春
于是伤心难过的把心一狠
BLOCK掉这个无情郎
本来一段可以挽回的感情
变得没有弯转了

聪明成熟的男生绝对不会这样做
除非有第三者
除非双方都不爱了
那又另当别论

男生们
当女友跟你吵架说要跟你分手
如果你还很爱她
千万不要去移动你的relationship status
就算她改你也不要改

你不要觉得这样很吃亏
因为这样做代表你向女的证明
虽然你不要我
但我还是unavailable
我还是等你
我只要你

在那一段冷战的日子里
细腻敏感的女生会特别注意这些东西的
你要让他看到你的真心和诚意
这样的做法一定会深深的感动她
改变本来决意跟你分手的念头

当然
这只限于一般男女误会吵架的情况
如果是说女的变心另投他人怀抱
你就不必这样做了
没有用的
浪费时间

昵称

我很奇怪
为什么男生在热恋的时候
都爱幻想要把对方娶做老婆
如果他们谈恋爱十次
他们十次都会有这个念头
你看那些老是把女友老婆上老婆下叫着的人
他们大都还是乳臭未干的小子
有些他们还是mother pet呢
他们很爱你的时候
就想把你占为己有
所以往往就会有这类不切实际的幻想

所以不要以为男生昵称你老婆就沾沾自喜
不要当他说非娶你不可就感动得泪涕零流
因为之前他不知对多少女生说过同一种话
或者在你之后他也会对其他人说回同样的话

我不否认
也许
他们那个moment的感情是真的
但
这种感觉不会forever对一个人有罢了
所以不要傻到信以为真
因为世事难料啊

我很怕听到一些小情侣老婆老公的叫着对方
如果日后他/她不再是你的另一半
看着自己当年叫着的老公或老婆
挽着其他人的手
又叫着他们老公老婆
那种感觉
EXTREMELY WEIRD!!!

专家的话

”金牛座男讨厌变化
他喜欢稳定的安全感
所以一旦爱上了
就很难走到分手的这一步
即使对方的观念，想法与他大相径庭
他也不会消极轻易的放弃
而是积极的说服对方
因为对他们来说
情人总是旧的好....“


以上的是那些星座”仙家“所写的
是吗？
看起来的确跟我所认识那些牛倒又有一点点相似
不过后面那句很令人忐忑不安
这么念旧的人
搞不好他随时都会回去找他的EX咧 ！！！
所以
还是不要冒险爱上有Ex的金牛男哦

Lovey Dovey < 3

"喂..... bi啊..起身了啦？..吃了吗？..还没啊？..哎唷为什么还没吃？..噢...要bom bom啊？
那好，你先去bom bom 先，等下我再call你 har.....ok..byeeee....love youuuuu.....“

以上的情节是发生在车厢里
车里的司机是我咪
讲电话的人坐在我咪旁边
我则坐在后座

我看我咪一副老僧入定专心地驾着车
我实在佩服她是怎样可以tahan的
后来我偷偷问她
她笑说早已”冷“到全身麻木了

所以说
恋爱中情侣的对话
就像跟baby讲话般
什么sayang sek sek bao bao oink oink pig pig...
讲的人很syok 听的人活受罪
不过当局者迷
局外人就看开点吧 ：）

Another Untitled Post

Letters ain't common for people nowadays except to collect debts, promotions etc. .
so whenever i receive letter, i will be surprised. .
just like this previous post...
So last few days, I was astonished when I see a letter.




















Daddy's name appeared as recipient and the sender was. . . .
SMK Sulaiman. the school cop on the letter really shocked me.

*Heart beating*

I was worrying that is the First Warning Letter or letter to inform my parents about I skipped classes as I haven't been to school for nearly a month after PMR ends without any valid reason..
Come on. . .wouldn't be that serious right. .every PMR candidate did the same isn't it. . .
tell me it's not FWL. . .not FWL. . . .

*Heart beating*

So I anxiously check what's the letter is about. . .



































Phew! It's just this kokurikulum matter. . .
and what? 20 bucks for Chinese Poem Recital national level acheivement as reward?
hahaha. . .
this is what you will get if you study in sekolah rancangan khas which has less than 25% chinese students. . .Chinese has no value at all. How pathetic.
But anyway, we feel proud of ourselves though the 20 bucks is not commensurate with the effort we poured in and the hardship we gone through :)


Oh by the way, please allow me to utilize this opportunity to syok sendiri :D
This two certs especially the malay is also one of the best acheivement for me this year. . .








































Though I was glad to get this but it was quite disappointing as I wasn't able to get for English that I once thought i will surely get it.
Mummy said keep the hope for next year, she wish I can get the best for three languages.
But I think I might disappoint her coz I'm still considering whether I should give up Chinese or not. . .
and I'm currently thinking of ways to convince my mummy on this coz she insist want me to take this subject.
I'm hesitating and I need some advice and opinion from more people....I think. . . .

又再见

嗨， 我们终于“ 再见 ”了

久违了
真的是久违了
大半年没有写过一篇东西
后遗症是
不知如何重新开始

就像一对恋人
分开很久了
再见面
都不知该说些什么
电影小说往往是这样的

嗨，你好吗
嗯，还好，你呢
哦，我也一样
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
场面很尴尬

在我上锁blog时
就决定暂停一阵子
除了一些多年的blog友
我没有邀请任何一位身边的朋友进来
甚至我最要好的朋友

这造成很多误会
他们个个都以为自己是那个
The only one who is NOT invited
他们以为我不当他们是朋友
他们有的在FB msg 问我
我解释说我暂停
有写东西会邀请他们进来
他们都接受我的解释

很多没问我的朋友
他们不太高兴我
他们觉得我对朋友有双重标准

一些跟了我的blog很久的好的朋友
他们因为这件事
开始对我冷谈了

没关系
当我写完这篇东西
我想我会邀请他们
让他们知道
我有当他们是我朋友

半年时间
发生了很多事情
有喜有乐
有悲有怒
那些值得记着的
还留存在我脑中

生活中我是个注重私隐
不习惯把心事向朋友透露的人
朋友们时常都埋怨
说我防范心太强

其实
太多东西憋在心里也不好受
所以我想把它化成文字
留在我的blog里

从现在开始
我会写一些比较私人的生活与感情琐事
由于blog已上锁
进得来的朋友
他们都是值得信赖的
所以我也没有什么好顾忌的

我希望
PMR过后
这个封尘已久的部落格
可以像以往那样
每一篇帖子都是用心地去写
让人看后
回味无穷

哇,有点老黄卖瓜
自赞自夸之意哦
哈哈

Text Style

Frankly, I really feel not happy with those who text me without mentioning my name especially my good friends~
They used to call me sha, my sha, dear, buddy, baby, sweetie, sweetheart, darling, pig pig, granddaughter etc
Sometimes when I received friend's text without calling me purposely,
I'll delay replying them or just ignore them..
but fortunately most of them know me well so they rarely do that :)
Btw for me, i surely will call their names in texts because this is considered a courtesy and it is able to give the recipient a nice, warm and cozy feeling~
At least I think so

Zai Jian~再见

I need to share something very privacy of myself with my friends
So, I planned to lock my blog
I apologize to those who are not invited
Thanks for your support and visit all the time
Bye...

I love it

Thanks Ah Wei for delivering these flowers for me
I love real flowers <3

Suo Le Zai Jian

13.2.2011 11.30pm

“ 跟你说从你第一封的sms
到现在我一封都没有delete过..
还有机会的话..等一辈子我都等..
所以我愿意..=）”

这个message
我看一次
忍不住哭一次

两年多了
我以为
你早已放弃...
原来你没有...

情人节的前一天
你让我流泪了

My Ambition

我咪问我
“你以后要做什么工作?”
我说
“不可以讲的，讲出来会不灵的:D”
她没好气地瞪了我一眼说
“那你就写出来吧～”
哈哈！果然有其女必有其母

其实啊
不是不要讲
而是我有太多愿望
暂时还不懂要做什么
我小时候就已经爱钱如命了
所以一度幻想当收银员

目前我对很多行业工作都很有兴趣
我喜新厌旧不爱呆板的生活
我身边的人都有很多建议
他们认为我可以读大众传播媒介
我爱语文历史so又有人建议我读Law

然而～
你们知道现阶段我最想当什么吗
是麻醉医师
嘿嘿
没想到咧

我咪问为什么要当麻醉师
我说可以避开解剖啊
她说你读这科还不就是读医科
一样要解剖见血
啊，是咩？我晴天霹雳~
希望落空了:(
你呀,真是孤陋寡闻～她摇头

为什么怕解剖
我咪继续问
不懂要怎样下手切肉～我答
下次我煮菜切肉时你来我教你
哦，酱可以吗～我怀疑
当然，原理一样的， 会缝线吗～她又问
还可以
那还好～她说
今早你流鼻血， 看到手帕上的那些血你害怕吗
不怕～我说
那你还有希望啦！
是吗～我开心的问
你用功点啦， 不要每天听那些韩歌看韩剧～没益处的
花多点时间读书，你以为做医生酱容易啊？像你这种做事只肯努力八十分就觉得够的人，
做什么都很难成功的你知道吗...还有啊.........................................
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